What if.......

So lately I havent been able to sleep very well. I dont know if it is because I'm just not tired or if it is me. Lately my mind has been playing this game with me when I lay my head down, this game is the 'what if' game. This is not a pleasant game nor does it do any good for your emotions and self esteam.

So the basis of it is thinking back in your life and how you would change it. Such as: What if I had just tried to be a better girlfriend, would my life have turned out differently, or what if I hadn't gone out that night, would my life be different. And unfortunatly for myself this what if game does not apply to happy things. It is mostly taking the biggest dissapointments or mistakes in my life and making me relive them.
So why not try not thinking about it? Because my mind is a powerful thing and wont let me think for myself apparently. So that is the reason I guess I am so 'emotional' lately, lack of sleep and bad memories. Fun stuff

---- Sorry for the downer guys i just needed to get it out----

My Day Trip to UBC

Ok so today Britney and I decided to go to UBC and pretend we were students and just wander around UBC. So we were wondering around and just kinda having a good time seeing how big it is. Then by total fluke accident we saw they were filming fantastic 4 there so we saw all the trailers and the set, but sadly none of the actors. So we got hungry and ate at the SUB building and it felt like we actually went there no one looked at us like we didnt belong. Then we wandered into a few buildings, such as the library and the Biology building and athropology. Then we passed by the Rec center and decided to go in there and we found heaven on earth. If you want to find hot guys thats the place to go. So me and Britney hung around there for a little while, like creepers do. So then we wandered around to where the dorms are and then we got a little side tracked and ended up where they are building these fancy condos so we had to backtrack. Then we decided to go back to my place and rent a movie. So we rented the break-up it was pretty good then we went back into childhood and watched Aladdin. Aladdin is a very good movie, he is very sexy. Then we started to realize that Disney doesnt make good movies anymore. None of them have songs and a good solid love story like olden days Disney, it's just a shame for the kids of today. But I shall go to sleep and dream of Aladdin and all those sexy fellas from UBC.
A whole new World - Aladdin and Jasmine

Shock

Ok so something that I never thought about when I got up this morning would be saying goodbye to my fish. He's lived for 2 years and I knew he wouldnt last forever but I really didnt expect for him to just die. And I feel like a fool sitting here crying over a fish. But really he wasnt just any fish, he was Adam. I got him during a rough time in my life and beleive it or not I actually felt that he knew what was going on with me, When ever I went to put on my makeup he would swim up to the side of the tank and just kinda be there with me and it was nice to know that he was here at night. Even though he was a fish who wouldn't be able to protect me from anything I knew that he was there. It's just sad that my little buddy is gone. Flushing him tonight was one hard thing to do, I kept expecting him to just start swimming again but he didnt. Well Goodbye Adam you were a great fish and I will miss you dreadfully. RIP

Rant continued

Ok so you have all read my first rant hopefully and if not stop now and go down one post and read it. Trust me its worth your while ha ha. Ok so I don't know if I have the hate in me to rant like i did before and if yuo ever have any suggestions on what I should rant about leave a comment and your wish may come true.

1. Tadpoles: Ok so when i was little and spring was comming to an end and it was time to clean out my grandpas pool it was a bitch because of the damn tapoles. During the winter the damn frog decided once it was safe enough to go into the pool after the chlorine was gone that they would swim in this awsome pool and procreate with one another and have a huge swarm of tadpole children. So me and my cousins would stand there with a scoop and try to dish out all the tadpoles so that we didnt kill them. So yuo would think that if we spent all this time doing so maybe they would spare us of this the next year BUT NOOOO. The stupid ignoramic fog did it again. Like honestly why bother all we are gunna do is kick you back out and put chlorine back in it. I dont care how small yuor brain is little frog you should use yuor common sense and find a pond........jackhole.

2. Barbie n' the bratz: Ok so when I was a young little princess I played with Barbies........ok fine when I was a fifteen year old teenager. Barbies were the coolest things you can dress them up and make them have sexual relations with Ken and yada yada, it was good times. But then over the years the Barbie race has been dwindleing and why is this?! The fuckin Bratz dolls. You midaswell stamp PROSTITUTE on there boxes because its pretty much teaching your kid that you can wear shit loads of makeup and have belly button rings when your 5. Barbie never did that, Barbie represented a fun loving girl who liked to ride horses, the Bratz doll likes to ride ... well you know..... So in conclusion Barbie should hop in her Barbie jeep and kick it into 4X4 and run over those bitch ass hoes and get her domain back.

3. Homelessness: Ok so I dunno about you but when I am walking around somewhere I don't like to be asked to give someone money because they are unambitious. First of all how about they give me some money becasue I am attempting to do something with my life and becasue of that I am shit ass poor. Second of all if I am wearing a spandex outfit on my way to the gym where the fuck am i supposed to keep change to give to you?? Oh yes sorry I will defuse it out of my skin, just hold on sir. Mind you the homeless people that are creative may deserve a quarter or too because they are using a bit of their brain that god gave them. Such as if they are brazeny honest like this one homeless man whose sign read " Need money for alcohol research" and your just like amen buddy thank god one of us said it. So word to the wise to the other homeless people just be honest and funny dont sit on that corner like someone kicked your dog smile your nasty toothless grin.

4. Movie Theater Concession Stand: Ok so I know me and my crew, when we roll to the movies we bring our own snacks because if I am going to pay the $10 bucks to get in I sure as hell aint gunna spend another $20 to get a drink and some popcorn. Like how greedy are these damn movie theater boss dudes. Like do yuo not get it tools that young kids are poor. Offer no name food we're fine with thatwhat do we care its food and if its cheap we will proably eat more. Like when I go I buy chocolate and pop before I go into the theater I am happy because I spent like 3 bucks tops and I am a lot more pleased with myself because not only was i thrifty but i was sneaky too.

5. Buisness People: Ok so when I am downtown and I am going to school and I'm dressed like a preppy thug thing and I see all these people in suits and its like " Wow they must be soo acomplished thats what I wanna be someday" Well in reality I can be like tha tomorrow. All I need is a suit and a cell phone and a coffee. Because have you ever thought that maybe these people really have no job but they put on their suit and go downtown and just wonder around making people think that they are rich and successfull. So maybe if I do that people will like me and think I am smart and sofisticated, but then when they actually hang out with me they will find that I am truly a tool who is a prentender. But then they will be like well thank god at least I have a friend who also pretends they are cool and then this whole sinanigans with suits will end.

Ok so that was fun. All these suggestions were from Britney and Noor so I just came up with the rants hopefully you have good time. These rants were a little less hatefilled and a little more joking but they were fun peace out!!!

Dun Dun Dun Dun Dun ( Jaws theme music if you were having difficultys figuring it out)

Ok so sorry about that my computer wouldnt let me blog there for a while I was getting worried as well as some threatening comments from someone who will remain un-named.... CRYSTAL!!!. Ok so I don't want to bore everyone with my sappyness I feel today so I will do some rants that hopefully you will find amusing.

1. Phone Dating: Ok so first of all no matter how desperate and alone I am or ever will be I will NEVER EVER sink to the level of phone dating. I dont know about you but the people on those comercials are pretyy good looking and if anyone of us were to call there and meet up with one of those people we would not get a looker. We would walk into the cafe and be like " Oh shit..... sorry I thought you were sasquatch, I really am sorry about that but I have to go......" Because pretty sure those hotties on the commercial have no problem landing themselves date.... hot people don't need telephone dating..... thats why i dont call..... (and awkward silence)

2. The sidewalk: Ok so a recent development in Vancouver (which they probably think is soo super duper clever but they are wrong...very wrong) is that they put this paint on the road infront of the crosswalks that say "LOOK --->" showing which way the traffic is comming. And its like " OMG I didnt even know that was the way the traffic is comming, thank you sooo much City of Vancouver for opening my eyes!!!" Mind you there are those dumb ass people who DO walk into the street and ihave one message for them ..... "Thanks for making us all look like jackass retards!"

3. Umbrellas: So since I am a giant I find many problems with society today; and one of those problems is short people with umbrellas. I don't mean to rag on the asian society but they seem to be the worst. Because when I get off the bus the little asian ladies open there umbrellas and fling it back and the little metal pokey things hit me flat in the eyes. And its like "thank you very fucking much for blinding me ma'am........die" And people wonder why I look so bitter and hatefilled while walking down the sidewalks ....... it's because your short and you have an umbrella. I'm thinking about getting one and not even opening it, just smoking people across the back of the head.

4. pigeons: Pigeons, more than any other birds piss me off the most. Like how cool is a pigeon that flies from a awning and hitting someone in the face.... not fucking cool at all. Like how messed up are they do they just sit there and be like "hmmm i think i'm gunna fly over there crap a few times then hit a gorl in the face, yea that sounds like a fufilling day". Seriously they are the laziest most retarded birds EVER. Like come on get a real job like the other damn birds you f'in free loaders.

5. Thurday Night Tv: Ok this night is the happiest and most upsetting night of my life. There is so much to watch and not enough time to watch it. Do the TV producers sit there and go " Man I wanna see a teenage girl have a freak out because the OC and Greys anatomy are on at the SAME TIME!!! Muah ha ha ha" they are truly sick bastards in my mind. If evil is in this world it is in the tv industry. I can't even cope on those nights because a VCR is only capable of so much... tisk tisk.

So there is more to rant on but I will save that for another day when I may have a little more hatred in me. Hope you enjoyed!!! Peace Geese

Long Update

Ok so I just got back from the Island from a very much needed vacation!! And man oh man do I have a shit load to blog about.......

Ok so my friend Britney decided to come with me and I hope she had a good time, because I enjoyed having her around. So my Dad came to the ferry and got us, and because of his leg I got to drive home which was terrifying at first because I hadnt driven in like forever, let alone on a highway. So I picked up the Almister and gave her a lift home, and I got us home safe so that is a bonus. Then I had to go get fitted for new orthodics so that was fun I suppose ha ha.

So just over the weekend I showed Britney around the island kinda, it was hard cuz I didnt have a car but there isnt a lot to do there and I think she figured that out. But my Britty-Cent came to the island and I havent seen her in FOREVER so it was awsome seeing her again, so we went out to the spit, and it was confusing because there was me and Britney and Brittney soo 2 Brits and 1 Stephanie it was VERY confusing. Then on that day Jamie and Graham came into the house and broke the news that tey were engaged and I was pretty shocked to say the least, I felt bad cuz I wasnt more excited but I was just so shocked ha ha. But congrats to them!!!!!! So at night time we decided to have a bonfire in our backyard and we had s'mores and so we and James were playfighting and he is so frickin strong I couldn't win to save my life. Then he comes over and lifts me up pver his head and gave me an airplane spin and I was just in frickin shock because he is my little brother and he lifted my up OVER HIS HEAD. And for all that know me I am not a little lady.

So then came monday time for Thanksgiving (which was supposed to be on sunday, but we dont even want to indulge in that) So the day started off with some mad drama when our Turkey was bad so we couldnt cook it so we almost had to cancel which I would have been pretty pissed at. So we got another one thank god and so that was outta the way. So we were waiting for the turkey to cook so me, my mom, my dad and Britney were playing Dominos (its funner than it sounds) and I lost pretty miserably. The next thing you know the family was arriving and the table was set and we were ready for dinner. Britney probably thought we were pretty weird because we were having dinner at like 4 and my mom decided that we were going to eat out on the porch. So it was cool I suppose, it was weird not having Ben there because me and him always have th competition of who can eat more, or who can fit the most gravy on their plates ha ha ha. So then we did like we always do after dinner we played games, this year it was Scattergories, frick I love that game.

So then it came time to leave today which is always sad. So I said good bye to my dad and my brother and probably my final goodbye to Tinker. And we headed off back to Van so when we were waiting for the ferry I took Britney on the docks to see if maybe I could get a glance at that sexy man, and maybe Britney would get to see him too. But alas he was not there which was sad. So we went to town and I got some of those Holy Sole Shoes ( I was dead set against them but my foot doctor said I needed to wear them around the house) So Britney made me promise not to EVER wear them in public. So I made that oath to her. Then we stopped by and quickly saw Caitlin, and it was good to see her again. And of course I cried again and I got made fun of but I just miss her so much, its lame ha ha. So then that leads us to where I am right now pretty much, other than the ferry ride and such but I think you get the jist.

*******ALSO I would like to Congratulate Alisia and Mark on their engagement as well, congrats guys!!!*******

15 Reasons why Prison Break is Great

Ok so 20 Reasons Prison Break is the best show in Television:

15. It is on when nothing else is so you can watch it consience free
14. It teaches you how to successfully break out of a prison
13. It so so frickin intense that you don't know what to do with your self
12. You get a chance to meet some new hot up-n'commers
11. The HOTTIES
10. It's good for me because apparently I like bad boys (eg. Jovie John, boss's son)
9. Wentworths tattoes
8. I dated a guy with the exact same name as the main character
7. You never know what twist is comming next
6. Even though they do the whole season in a span of 2 weeks it doesnt drag on because it is so intense.
5.Tweener
4. Sucre
3. The chemistry between Sarah and Wenty
2. Dominic Purcell ( Lincon)
1. AND OF COURSE THE HOTTEST FRICKIN MAN ALIVE ~~~ WENTWORTH MILLER~~~

~~~ And the fact that Wenty one day will be my husband!!

What I see at the gym

Ok so after getting up at 1 and playing a couple of hours of N64 I decided it was time to go to the gym. So I pull on my spandex workout pants and a wife beater and slip on my running shoes and head out the door. So I walk down to the gym and I put all my stuff in the little cubby boxes and head over to the eliptical trainer. So on one side of me there is a girl who is just givin'r and on the other side there is this little asian girl who is hardley moving the machine at all, to the point where the machine wasnt even on because she wasnt even moving it enought to hit the sensers. so she was just reading the magazine barely moving, the she lifts up the magazine to see how far she has gone and the machine isnt even on, so she goes faster so the machine turns on, then she goes slow and read again and she did this the whole time i was on the machine. So i finished there and I went to the change room to fill up my water bottle and all these asian ladies are putting on make up to work out. ITS AN ALL LADIES GYM for christ slakes. I don't mean to pick on the asian ladies but the white girls go in there in mis matched outfits and ragged hair no make up (cuz you just sweat it off) like personally I would rather not be at the gym for an extra hour putting on make up. Even if guys were there I still would not. I just think its ridiculous.